19 years ago at 2:25 pm I took my first breath of air and opened my eyes to the world. Since then I have lived a full, beautiful, blessed and eventful life in which I have grown into the individual I am today. No matter how close I am to you or who you are I would like to thank you for all being a part of it in your own way because I wouldn’t change it if I could. <3
I’m rebloging this beautiful cake because my birthday is coming up on the sixth
(via live-regret-less)
(via heartmeanseverythiiing)
Someday I would love see this in my bedroom, where the Sun shines through huge windows and glass doors and light up the whole room. Just beyond that I can see the ocean. I would be so happy.
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“I Can’t Make You Love Me”
Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don’t patronize - don’t patronize me
Cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I’ll feel the power
But you won’t, no you won’t
‘Cause I can’t make you love me, if you don’t
I’ll close my eyes, then I won’t see
The love you don’t feel when you’re holding me
Morning will come and I’ll do what’s right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight
Cause I can’t make you love me if you don’t
You can’t make your heart feel something it won’t
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I’ll feel the power
But you won’t, no you won’t
‘Cause I can’t make you love me, if you don’twow
I realized as I just walked home on my swollen feet and tired body from trying to avoid being another second with you or give you another chance to treat me like dirt that I don’t cry because you hurt me now. I cry because once you hurt me or belittle me so much it reminds me of all the things you have done to me and all the things I wanted to say to you about how I deserve to be treated or feel that I have pushed so far in the back of my mind until my tears pushed them back to the front. And those tears I feel swelling in my eyelids and building deep in my throat almost to the point of emesis are me holding it all in, in fear that if it came out that it would show my weakness to you. At this point I don’t trust anyone especially you to even allow you to see anymore of that side of me. What’s pathetic is that I work in the hospital and deal with high stressful situations where people die on a daily basis but none of that brings me as much anxiety or torment then you do. I believe this is one of the thousands signs that your chapter in my life is ending. As I wrote that and read it a wave of sadness gushed over me, but there is nothing left to do anymore.
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